i wish i could.....

i wishh,, i could turn back the time, 

coz im regret knowing you in my life, 

u destroy my life just like that,,

never think other feeling..

i noe u wanna protect ur self,,

but, if u used ur mind before talking anything,,

u wont said any worse thing..

i don now what happen with u, but im seriously cant understand,,

and i still cant believe that ur life showed ur attitude..

its was so bad..

im soorryy,,

im tired coz keep sympathy to other, protect other feeling,,

didnt touch any name in serious discussion,.

but u?? easily pickup other name without thinking twice coz u also involve in dat matter.,.

nobody care of my feeling,

so for what im care about ur/other feeling?? its too bad aite?

owhh..

im sorry again,,

coz i already tell the truth to that person about you,,

i noe she is your best frens,, but,, we also fren..

maybe u know her early/better than me,,

but that not the reason why u betray me!!!

you wanna said about 'kawan sejati'?? and y ad org ckp u 'musuh dlm selimut'

you know the answer i guess..

kalo lahhh ko phm kannn,, sbb ko ni sush sikit nk masuk pe org ckp..

i wanna share something to you about 'teman sejati'

if u is the true 'teman sejati' i dun think u can hurt her feeling with said something dat u you she will get hurt..

if u PASS that thing, then only u can act like u is 'teman sejati forever'

in other word,, u choose her than me,,?? aite?

then its okeyh.,, im never hope that we're frens,,

huhhh!! perangai mcm ape.. pelikk aq!!

to my buddy : i hope, if u read this, u wont tell anyone, coz i noe u noe who is it,,

and i really wish dat we can hangout together, just two of us, to share something good and worse together

coz i miss it so badly.. 

tq

ku menangis ;'((

kawannn.. 

kenapa kau maseh menangis??

kenapa kau x cube membahagiakan diri ko?

sesungguhnya hidup ibarat roda sygg,,

aku tidak menuduh kau dengn pe yg kau pernh lakukn,,

aq memahami kau sgt..

cubalah pandang aytku dr sudut positif..

kawann..

jgn lah kau bersedih lg,, 

sesungguhnya dengan name Allah aq menangis setiap kali

kau menangis,

aq menangis setiap kali membaca coretan mu..

walaupun kite bukn 'kawan' lagi,,

hnye disini aq dpt meluahkan..

kawannn,,

aq merayu pada kau,,

jgn lahh bersedihh lg,, 

usah risau pasal cinta,, kerana Dye ada selalu dengan kau..

jgn lahh bersedih dgn cinta yang sememangnya bukan milik kite..

dan kalo sebenarnya Dia milik kite.,, 

insyaalhh,, waktu dye pergi dan kembali,,

DIA akan kembali padamu..

kawaannn

aku menulis coretan ini dengan seikhlas hati aq,,

ingt x wktu kite bru2 kenal?

aku rapat ngn ko disebabkn aku selesa dengan kau,,

kau ibarat kakak ku,,

tp selepas kau bertemu sidia...

kite renggang... tiada masa lg untuk bergelak ketawa..

ku sanggup tinggalkn kekasihku asalkn dapt bersama gelak ketawa bersama mu..

tetapi,, kenangn hanya tinggal kenangn gara2 kesalahfahaman..

kawannn..

jikalau aku penyebab kedua kau bersedih..

aku memohon ampun yang tersangat2..

aku menyayangi kau sgt walaupun kite bru 2bulan kenal..

tolong lahh,, jgn lahh bersedih lg,,

aq merayu..

hubungi lahh aku jika kau memerlukan aku kawannn..

aku akn disisi kau seperti dahulu..

percayalahhhh  ;'((

ya allahhh..

makbulkn lahh segala doa ku untuknyaa...

dye seorg yg baik,,

bg laahh masa sebaiknya untuk mereka..

jangan lahh kau membiarkn Dye sedih..

sesungguhnya aq lg sedihh..

kerana aku adalah punce kesedihan itu..

aku berdosa padanya,,

aku xsanggup melihat dye menangiss..

walaupunn hari2 lalu penuh tragedi,,,

makian kau jgn dirisauu.. aku menangis dgn makian kau

bukan sebb ape,, tp aku rasa sgt bersalh sehingga kau melemparkan kata2 itu..

aku mohon maaf..

bialhh masa yang meredakannya..

biarpun 'status' fb mu mengatakan sush untuk mempercayai aku lg..

terpulangg lahhh,, memang kesilapan ku..

terima kasihh untuk hari2 bahagia yang pernah kita lalui..

suka && duka.. ku bahagia mempunyai teman seperti...

** airmata xhenti mengalir sepanjang menulis coretan ini ;'(

ini adalah coretan ikhlas dr hatiku

TAKE AWAY!!

GODDDDDDD...........!!!

I NEED U SO MUCHH,,

PLZZ,, TAKE AWAY MY MIND,, 

I DUN WANNA REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT MY LIFE..

ITS HURT MY FEELING SO MUCH..

WHEN SOMEONE TRYING TO PROTECT HER SELF WITH PICKUP OTHER NAME..

OMG!! ITS REALLY HURT WHEN IM TRYING TO MAKE U AS MY BESTFREN..

ITSS SOOO OVERR DEAR!!

I HATE YOU COZ U LIED ME!!

U SAID U WANNA HELP HER..

BUT AT LAST..

U DESTROY OUR RELATIONSHIPP..

GOD!! 

HELP ME,, BELIEVE ME,,,

IM NOT BETRAY ANYONE..

COZ I LOVE HER SO MUCH..

IM CRYING WHEN SHE CRYING,

IM HAPPY WHEN SHE HAPPY..

IM TRYING TO MAKE SHE HAPPY..

BUT.........................

EVERYTHING WAS GONE...

IM CRYINGG ALL THE TIME..

IM SO SADD..

I CANT BELIEVE THIS HAPPEN..

OMG,, TO FAST,, 

I CANT EXPLAIN ANYTHING COZ ITS TOO LATE ;((

IM ALREADY BLACKLIST FROM THEIR HEART,,

IM SORRY FREND..

BUT BELIVE ME..

WHAT U ALL THINK IS NOT REALLY HAPPEN..

IT JUST A TRAP..

IM SORRY AGAIN COZ I CANT BE YOUR HONEST FREN..

IM LIED NOT BECAUSE I WANT TO BACKSTAPPER YOU..

BUT I JUST WANNA FIND ANY SUITABLE TIME FOR US TO 

SETTLE IT DOWN..

IM REALLY SORRY ;'((

I CANT HOLD THIS ANYMORE GOD..

IM DOWN...

;'((

salam maal hijrahh

askummmmmm ;))

rase cm da bersawang lg bolg aq nihh..

lame gle x update story gara2 abah xmau byr bil broadbnd..

HAHA.. jahat!!

sorry bloggiee,, u miss me?? i miss u too.. :D

okeyh2,, back to topic...

just wanna wish you 'salam maal hijrah'..

many good and bad things happen in 2010.. 

im gonna miss u 2010..

past is past,, let it be.. 

jdkn pengajaran mane yg x elok tu, yg elok,, ulang lahh lg.. keyh..

hope>>>

** wanna be a very the success girl in my life

** wanna make all my dreams come true

** wanna be more matured then before

** changes from negative to positive

** wanna make new life, new feeling and new attitude

** wanna be with my lovely forever

pokoknyaaa.. nk ubahhh segalanya2 yg negative ke positive..

can i??? huhhhh,, hopefully ;))

pray for me keyh

i love youuuu

miss

 

weeee... miss this moment so badly....

cantek x sy pkai tudungg??

huhu (huduhhh!!)

xpe2.. HAHA..

tu je nk cakappppppp..

hehe ;))

sibling~~

 

enjoy look at all this photo..

just wanna share with u,..thatt

im very lucky cuss have them in my lifeee..

they lighten up my day...

i love all of them so badly..

xoxo**

crying

im cryingggg

~~~~~~~~~

;((

PUPUS

god.. can u be fair??

hmm,,sorry, u always be fair aite?

im the one never be fair..

hmmm,, im crying...i dun know..

mgkin sbb terlalu byk menyakitkn hati org tersygg..

and terlalu happy sbb dpt sakitkn hti org tnpe memikirkn dye..

and mgkin sbb terlalu happy hidop bebas,,

or wateva!!

hmmm,,,

ya allhh,, boleh x pupus kn pasaan aq kt org len?

perasaan aq cm dah terlanjur jaohh,,,

tolong lahh.. 

aq nk & xnk... 

aq takott..

hmmmmmm

kalau lahh ad org mengerti.. 

kn besttt ;((

its YOUR bufday HONEY !!

its has been a year kan sygg bufday awk berlalu..

sekejap je...

padahal rasa cm bru mggu lepas kite gado sbb xmau blek 

jb smbot bufday awk..

many thing happen dlm mse setahun ni kan..

dan smpai skunk..

we still gadoh time nk dekt ngn bufday awk..

xpe lahh...

taon lepas sy wt surprise gle2 kt awk walaupon kite smbt berdua di melaka..

awk hepy kn?

taon ni sy x sure mampu wt ke x..

tp insyaallhh..

13/11/2010 ni,, sy akn try yg terbaik,,

sy nk tebus segala kesalahan sy kt awk..

awk terlalu baik tok sy..

dan sy sgt bodoh sbb x memahami awk,.,

im sorry sayanggg..,

awkkk,,,

sy nk awk taw,,, walaupon sy tiap2 hri wt awk mara,

tu sbb sy sygg.. bkn benci..

sy rse bodoh sgtt awk wt awk cm tu..

tp .... hmmm..

perasaan cm tu dtg sndri..

awkkk...

walaupon awk xde blog, xde internet,

dan xpernah baca ape yg sy tulis kt blog sy,,

sy xkshh,, 

saya memang suke syok sendri..

sy x tulis bnde sume ni hnye kerana pura2 dan sebagainya..

dye dtg dr hati kecil sy..

sbb sy rse sy terlalu byk dosa ngn awkk..

awkkk..

sy ni bkn org yg romantikkk..

tp sumpah sy teringn jd romantik..

sy romantik kt blog je lahh.. bole?

awkk... 

boleh x awk berjanji x kn tggalkan nsy walau ape pon terjd?

bole x awk?

awkkk...

sy cdey lahh.. nth lahh..

xtw cpe yg ganggu,, tp sy cdey sgtt..

cm nk nanges je nihh.,

boleh sy nanges kt bahu awk?

sy rinduuu

;((

last but no least..

happy belated bufday sygg...

may all ur wishes come true,,

may u succes in your life.

and

happy always,,

no more tears plzz

;))

peace

lalalalalala~~~

lalalalala ~~~

xmau ckp pape..

hahaha

ok byeeeeeeee ;))

gado gadoooo

perangg lg !! aisehhh....

bosannn la sygg asek gado je...

plz laaa...

try to understand me lahhh my dear..

i do need u...

but at the same time..

i need some space for us...

jgn lahh wt sy bosannnn....

k.. plzzz laaaaa...

kalo syg kn hubungn ni...

jgn lahhh cmni....

sy sayangg awk je k..

AWAK SAHAJA !!

IM YOURSSSSS....

xde ape nk dirisauukn..

xcurannggg pponnn lahhhh..

xde org nk kt sy ni lg....

k.. plzz r...

tu je sy mnx...

stop THINKING NEGATIVE THING TO ME !!!

PRESSUREE TAW X !!!

kenal bkn sehari dua...

da 5 THUN SY KENAL AWKKKKK !!!

pe je sy xlaluii pzaa... hmmmm

xkn lahh sy xde otakkk...

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

p/s : kepada laki2 kt luar sne tu..

put ut believe on her 100% okeyhh..

cause she will never lie u when u treat her well..

k...

tq

nama ku....

nama ku..... xperlu disebutkan...

dr suara pasti kau kenall ku...

rupakuuu~~~~~~

 

(cutenyeeee ) haha

ok da!! stop kina/ miza/ sakina/ ija...

hahahha...

4 in 1... itu lahhh aq...

skunk aq nk cte pasl nme aq (tgh nosan nihh)

sebenrnya kina nihh aq pon x taw dr mne dtg nye,.,,

yg pasti since aq study kt MMU..

bdk2 cm xley terima nk pggil aq MIZA,, so diowg pon pggl laa KINA...

mule2 agak janggal..

sbb aq hidop selama 18tahun.. xpnh aq org pggl aq Kina..

then now.. Kina tu cm da bersepah2 da kt mulot org rmai...

so skunkk... 

dengan rasminyaa... aq mengishtiharkannn... ;))

name MIZA- tok org yg terdekt n yg sayang kn aq je(haha,,boleh x)

KINA - tok sahabat-sahabat aq yg comel2..

IJA - family yg tersayang

SAKINA- tok semuaaa,,,

itu lahh ceritaa nyaa... 

cerita keduaaa ;))

nk cte 'MANA DTGNYA PGGILAN MIZA'

nama miza dtg dr Mersinggg.. huhu

akak aq yg sulung, namanya Mushizah,

yang kedua Muszehan.,

abang aq yg ketiga Amir Muqsith..

aq Nursakina n adik aq Nurshahanim...

kebetulann time aq lahir,, atok nenek aq belah Ayah n Mak

syg lebihh lak kn.. diorg berebut nk letak nme cuci dye yg comel ni...

aqtok belah ayah nk Nursakina,, dye ckp maksd nme tu sedp 'cahaya ketenangan',,,

then atok belah mak ckp,, nk semua ad 'M'... letak lahh MUZSHAMIZA(sedp kn? len dr len)

hehhe.. dlm kehidupan.. da sah2 la kne dengar ckp Suami kn,, n sah2 ayh aq soh letk nme yg mak ayh dye bg..

so,, dr ctu lahh dtgnya Nursakina...

tp tp tp,.,, yg paling dasyatnye.. atok aq adil taw..

dua2 xnk mengalah...

atok belah mak aq strt pggil aq Miza dr lahir...

then diorg wt persetujuan....

nama aq Nursakina, tapi diorg akan pggil aq Mizaa..

hahahha.. 

so mereka pon setujuuu..

 

begitu lahh ceritanyaaaa...

penat dahh...HAHA...

TILL END ~~~

lalala linduu ;))

dearly love,
do you miss me the way I'm missing you.
do you wish for Sunday to come fast.
do you think about me as much as I did.

its a definite yes for me baby.
I'm currently truly crazily deeply missing you.
how I wish you will call me right now.
and put away all this painful moments.

I miss to give your wake up call every morning.
I miss to text you everytime i get excited over something.
I miss to you tell you how much i love you.
oh God I think I'm thinking about you a little too much.

just right now,
I hope you are doing well love.
I cant wait for beautiful tomorrow.
as I will see you safely and with a heart full of love.

 

p/s : im truly miss & love u my dear.. 

im really sorry for everything i had do..

;((

spend time together ;))

hhahahah...

gila r... first time dlm hidop aq SHISHA..

thnx sygg,, coz bg sy try wlaupn sy ni kekampungn skit..

hahaha..

bru sdot skit, batuk yg lbeh.. haihhh

its ok.. practice make perfect..

hahaha

 ok..after dinner,, we're going to KLCC,, dating time

 ok.. lets go back my dear , 2am already.. haihh.. 

ok,, the next day,, we're going to WONDERLAND, MELAKA

 MASSAGE DULU SBLM G MAIN..haha

 fun fun fun...

 help me !!!!!!!!

 boncitt !!!

 going backkk.. just taking a picture.. HAHA,, terlambat suda,, makeup da cair kot..

 this picture supposedly at above,, mlas nk upload.. so, bia je lahh kt bwh ni.. k.. haha

 thye most game WE like.. HAHA

 CUTIEE

i miss u so much,, yes i do !!

but,, hmmmmmmmmm ;((

ok stop stop stop kina !!

ishhh.. ngek lahh aq ni.. focus2...

haihh.. ok.. nk happy2 da...

just wanna upload my latest photo with him.,

at MELAKA & KUALA LUMPUR...

just a day..

damn tiredd,,, but hilang la skit penat aq sbb dapt release tnsion kan ;))

p/s : i still love u what matter happen ;))